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Granted a New Trial

The interviewee describes how the first 10 years of her 20-year prison sentence were hard, but that was the beginning of for getting and staying clean.

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Physical Labor

The interviewee describes encouraging others by reminding them of their inherent worth and ability to choose the right path.

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"I Am Not the Same Person"

The interviewee recounts acknowledging the harm she caused others and commits to turning over a new leaf.

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Stepfather's Abuse

The interviewee describes her stepfather experiencing abuse in childhood and him carrying that trauma into his adult behavior.

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More Fights, More Respect

The interviewee describes frequently fighting back to earn respect from her peers.

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Highest Dealer

The interviewee describes how losing a friend to drug-related theft served as a motivation to turn her life around.

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Mom's ATM card

The interviewee describes a willingness to take any necessary action when she was an addict.

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AA volunteer

The interviewee describes connecting with an AA volunteer who picked him up upon his release and took him to a 50's cafe.

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When Can Addicts Heal?

Interviewee describes how groups assisted in his initial transition; however, he shifted toward engaging primarily on an individual basis.

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"I'm on my 8th agent"

The interviewee describes the rotation of parole agents as just another signature on his file, confirming his gradual progress.

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Looking to Buy a House

The interviewee notes being engaged after 6 months of dating, with plans to marry at their own pace.

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"Everybody had a little section"

The interviewee describes how 'messing around' in prison was more tolerable and acceptable.

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Hunger Strike

The interviewee describes involvement in hunger strikes, where force-feeding was administered within 72 hours.

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Growing up on Welfare

The interviewee describes being raised alongside two brothers by a mother with a disability and an abusive stepfather.

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Lost both parents before getting out

The interviewee recounts the loss of his mother in 2012 and the tragedy of his father dying just five days before his release.

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Getting a Driver's License

The interviewee recounts learning to drive, acquiring his license, and buying his first $1,000 car.

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Bringing a Knife to a Gunfight

The interviewee describes his gradual transition toward self-improvement and his efforts to turn his life around.

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Selling and Using Drugs

The interviewee discusses selling drugs as a source of income due to personal circumstances.

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Three Assaults in the First Year

The interviewee discusses some of the violence and threats of violence he experienced moving from juvi to adult prison.

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Legal Failures as Juvenile

The interviewee describes how he was not allowed to be tried as a juvenile and that his lawyers repeatedly waived his right to a speedy trial.

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“Dangerous Contraband”

The interviewee describes how the cards were always stacked against him in prison even when he was doing things right.

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That’s Strength

The interviewee describes the joy of being found suitable for parole and how he mentally survived prison.

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“They Can Sense When You Deserve Parole”

The interviewee describes his experience before the parole board.

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Getting Shot Out the Cannon

The interviewee describes his first few days as a free man.

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Respect I’m a Lifer

The interviewee discusses how he learned to deal with the violence in prison.

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County Time

The interviewee describes his first time in county jail as a young person.

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My Mind’s Not Right

The interviewee describes how he felt he couldn’t fully understand his trial experience.

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Dope Balloons in Prison

The interviewee describes how he used his prison job to deliver bags of dope as a way to feed his habit.

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Low Self Esteem

The interviewee talks about some of the reasons he was a drug addict.

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Didn’t Click

The interviewee discusses how it took him a while to understand how serious his crime was and how many people he hurt.

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“How Did it Come to This”

The interviewee discusses how difficult the trial process and period was and his refusal to take a deal.

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Shattered Identity

The interviewee describes how he lost everything when he went to prison and how his life and identity became a blank canvas.

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My Biggest Regret

The interviewee discusses the emotions he feels about his life sentence crime.

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I Should Have Called 911

The interviewee describes his internal struggle to understand what to do after stumbling upon a crime scene.

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Worst Decision of My Life

The interviewee discusses how he was convicted of felony murder for being a look out.

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Finding Inner Peace

The subject discusses how he is able to find peace and continue to grow as a person.

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Not Believed

The interviewee describes his relationship with his parents and experiences in the community.

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Finding Life Through Stories

The interviewee describes how much some of his in-prison classes meant to him.

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“Can’t Just Run Over”

The interviewee discusses some of the challenges of living in highly race segregated prisons.

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Juvenile Hall at 12

The interviewee discusses his first time being locked up as a 12 year old and how scary that is.

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Struggle and Release

The interviewee describes how he used negative coping patterns to survive prison and how he was able to change that.

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We Ain’t Supposed to Show Emotion

The interviewee discusses some of his challenges and successes around learning to feel and show his emotions again.

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Losing Friends

The interviewee describes how he lost friends after quitting smoking in prison.

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Reprogramming Myself

The interviewee discusses how he was able to change his life by improving his self esteem.

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Afraid All the Time

The interviewee describes the constant undertone of violence in prison.

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“Leave Me Alone”

The interviewee describes his experiences in solitary confinement and some of the reasons he ended up there.

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Racial Strongholds

The interviewee describes how prison labor was divided by race.

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“I Fit Right In”

The interviewee describes how his first experience in adult prison was similar to juvenile detention.

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Circumscribed Options

The interviewee describes how is life is limited in the reentry process.

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Blind Spots

The interviewee describes establishing status in prison and not getting caught.

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What They Don't Tolerate

The interviewee describes some of the codes and rules of prison.

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Isolation When Running Away

The interviewee talks about how he isolated himself from everyone after running away from home.

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Jail Escape

The interviewee talks about his successful escape from jail.

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God Wouldn't Help Me

The interviewee describes his trial experience and they heavy weight and stress of it all.

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Good Chrono in Jeopardy

The interviewee describes a conflict with one of his program leaders that may have interfered with him gaining a “chrono” from her.

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Trial was a Farce

The interviewee talks about how he was failed because his attorneys did not fight for him and that's how they system works for Black people.

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Take Care of Own Safety

The interviewee describes how they could only count on themselves to police and check themselves because the guards ignored everything.

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"I Can't Afford a Black Eye"

The interviewee talks about how he did as he wanted in prison because he didn’t cause any trouble and got along with everyone.

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Picking Up Slack

The interviewee's oldest brother became the father figure of the house in terms of financing the family.

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Hope and Doubt

The interviewee describes what is was like to leave prison.

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It Runs in the Family

The interviewee describes the neighborhoods he grew up in as “bad” and details his family structure, which includes divorce and his need for a male role model.

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"No Law They Would Not Break"

The interviewee describes his difficult childhood as a child surrounded by neglect, addictions, and a toxic environment.

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Resentment Poisoning Him

The interviewee describes how he turned into an angry man to cope with his reality.

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Better Understanding of Myself

The interviewee discusses his experience before the parole board.

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Teen Runaway Education

The interviewee describes making "easy money" when he was a teen runaway.

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Let's Go Blasting

The interviewee describes the circumstances that led up to his life sentence crime.

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Becoming a Gang

The interviewee describes the frequency of gang fights in his community and how his brother joined a gang.

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It Wears On You

The interviewee talks about how he saw gates and bars everywhere, which affected him and everyone else, and how the community has been taken away from Black people.

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Violent Kids

The interviewee describes how, in his community, there are many gangs and the culture of gangs in his neighborhood. He uses humor as a defense mechanism to prevent gang members from bothering him.

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Enjoying Life and People

The interviewee discusses his process as a returning citizen and the multiple activities he has been involved with to maintain a productive life and enjoy every opportunity presented to him.

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Realizing Why I Did It All

The interviewee talks about her experience in prison, becoming clean, going to board, and figuring out who she is. She does this by going to groups and classes.

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Four Sentences

Interviewee discusses the sentences he has received and his three strikes that lead to his life sentence.

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Witnessing Suicide

Interviewee shares his turning point in prison. Witnessing other individuals who were incarcerated taking their own lives he chose to make life changes that supported his recovery.

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Joy in Seeing Others Heal

Interviewee discusses his desire to help others who have been through the criminal justice system. He expresses the joy he feels when witnessing their healing.

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Ten-Year Board Denial

The interviewee talks about getting a ten year denial from the board was devastating, but he wasn’t willing to give up.

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SHU Reputation

Interviewee describes how his reputation in the SHU smoothed his transition onto a level 4 general population yard.

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"Come to the Lifer Group"

The interviewee describes his initial release process after prison and his experiences with parole and the board. This is how he finally got to walk out of prison.

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Finding Family in Boxing

The interviewee speaks on how important it is to have family support because he says that he didn’t have that while growing up which made him look for it somewhere else.

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I Never Had a Father-Son Relationship

The interviewee tells a bit of his home as a child as well as his family dynamic. He also speaks a bit of how he turned Pro in boxing.

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“That Pain Will Always be There”

The interviewee speaks on the loss of his son and his son’s mother and how the pain he felt will always be there no matter if he goes to therapy or not.

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“One day at a time”

The interviewee speaks on his experience with a specific gang in prison and also on how he no longer drinks.

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Family Difficulties and Connections

The interviewee describes her relationship with her family members. Though her relationship with some people in her family were rocky, she overall appreciates many of them.

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Needing Support

The interviewee explains why he believes his life took a turn for the worse after being on his own.

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Getting Jumped in the Gang with 13 Girls

Interviewee describes the process of joining a gang in her hometown and how she was very badly beaten in order to join the gang.

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Delayed Charges

The interviewee tries to move forward, leaving her past behind. But eventually, the past catches up to her and gets arrested.

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Sobering Up During Trial

Interviewee explains his sobering process during his trial and becoming more aware of his charges and situation. He describes all the trials that had been stacking up until his final arrest for murder.

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Joining KYROS

The interviewee realizes he hasn’t fully healed when he gets in a fight. He describes transforming when he goes to KYROS, a spiritual gathering.

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Visit From an Angel

The interviewee describes having a dream where he is enveloped in light and told he can be healed and forgiven if he puts in the work. He realizes that his traumatic childhood is connected to his actions later in life.

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New Rules in Programming

The interviewee describes how race no longer matters when in the rehabilitation groups.

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God Hates Me

The interviewee recalls his girlfriend cheating on him with his best friend shortly after the passing of his stepfather.

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Proto-Meth

The interviewee describes becoming an meth addict in his teen years.

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My Shame

The interviewee describes his battle against alcoholism and the events that lead up to his life crime.

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Fatherhood Challenges

The interviewee talks about how he recently got back in touch with his son and their relationship.

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"Part of My Destiny"

Interviewee talks about how he lives life with no regrets and how he has made terms with everything he has done claiming “it is a part of my destiny”.

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Once the Law Started Changing, We Changed Too

Interviewee describes the how his hope in a new law allowed him to reflect on his actions and create a positive impact in his life.

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I Was Still a Kid

Interviewee recounts the acceptance he felt from being in a gang and how his main job within the gang had him in survival mode.

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"I'm Getting Married!"

Interviewee shares his excitement about his future outside of prison, including getting engaged. He expresses the eagerness he feels.

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"I Haven't Forgiven Myself For Everything"

The interviewee talks about how he is working through the process of forgiving himself.

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Only Male Figure in My Life

Interviewee shares about his experience losing his grandfather at a young age.

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God Gave Me Strength

The interviewee describes how he was able to share his story with others to help drive change. He also shares some of his passions and how they have evolved thus far.

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